#ThePositivityWave N°5

The Positivity Wave is a weekly Friday update that’s all about positivity, as you guessed it, and was created by Meggy @ Chocolate ‘N’ Waffles. I’m not participating every week, but with all the things that happened to me this week (I can’t believe it!) I felt like it was highly worthy of it!

🌊 Now that the confinement is more or less over in France (some people are still working from home, but restaurants are slowly reopening), I finally got to spend some times with some of my friends and I MISSED IT SO MUCH, and it felt so good.

🌊 Also, my favourite bar has reopened, and I spend my Saturday night there (outside!) with some of my friends last week, and it was amazing. I missed this so much. And yes, we are beeing careful. But we’re also making plans for the summer, and it’s good to finally be doing something out there! (That being said, I shoot dirty looks at every single customer who enters the bookstore not wearing a face mask, but that’s a whole other story).

🌊 While I don’t really have the energy to read physical books these days, I have managed to listen to some amazing audiobooks, and I’m really enjoying this! Among them: Clap When You Land as well as With the Fire on High by Elizabeth Acevedo, The Black Flamingo by Dean Atta, and King and the Dragonflies by Kacen Callender.

🌊 I moved out of my parents’ house, and moved in to a new flat on Monday! I have four flatmates, and I am so excited about this new chapter of my life that’s beginning. (Adulting much?)

🌊 Apparently, I got a pay raise? Still can’t wrap my mind around this one.

🌊 And tonight, I spent some time with my new flatmates. When I came back from work, two of them were in the kitchen, and instead of retreating to my room and lie down (which was tempting, I have to admit) I cooked and watched TV with them. And once again, it feels good to have people to hang out with!

That being said, I also miss my family, and I’m not just saying that because I know they sometimes miss my blog posts ❤ I’m still living not far from their house, and I can drop by pretty much whenever. And now it makes the time we spend together all the more valuable. So yes, it seems like a new chapter of my life is beginning, and I’m really excited about it!

#ThePositivityWave N°4

The positivity wave is a weekly Friday update created by Meggy @ Chocolate ‘N’ Waffles. I haven’t done it in a while, but as I’m back to work this week I didn’t have the time to make a book review, or rant, or whatnot so I decided to participate in the positivity wave for a change! Here are some things that made me happy this week.

🌊 As I said, I’m back at work and even though the situation is not the best with social distancing, I’m still glad to do something else with my days. There’s been a lot of customers, so I keep busy, and I feel useful for a change.

🌊 Not to brag, but a lot of my regular customers have complimented my new haircut and it sure feels nice!

🌊 One of my most anticipated releases of the year aka The Henna Wars by Adiba Jaigirdar was released this week and I started reading it immediately!

🌊 I’ve been looking for a new place to live now that the confinement is technically over, and so far it’s going great.

🌊 This is more of a thing that happened over the last couple of weeks, but it still makes me really happy for some reason so I wanted to share anyway. I’ve become obsessed with Lore Olympus (the webcomic) and Hadestown (the musical). On top of that, I binge read Heroes of Olympus around the beginning of the month, and it reminded me of how much I loved all things Greek mythology, and it has somehow reenergised me 🥰 And now the PJO tv show has been announced on top of everything, I am on top of the world!

🌊 As I read YA book after YA book during the confinement, and peppered it with kdrama and a few shojo, I came to realise something: it’s like I leveled up who I was in high school. It’s like, I still enjoy and read the things I used to love, except I do it more openly now. I full on accept it, and I get to share both at work, and online, and I guess what I want to say is that it’s extremely satisfying.

🌊 And last but not least (I don’t want to jinx it!) I started writing again! I stumbled upon a great pep talk on Monday and picked up my 2018 NaNoWriMo project (which didn’t have a lot of words as I quickly gave up) again. I’m really excited because it’s a concept I really liked, and I’m hoping I one day get to finish the story!


And that’s it for today! Have a wonderful day, take care & stay safe!

On Creating and Consuming Content

So this is something I have been thinking about quite a lot lately. Growing up, I have always loved reading books. But deep in the back of my mind, has also always been the thought that I wanted to write books. As a way to somehow repay all the authors whose books I have read. And as a way to maybe become a more “valid” member of the book community. (Keep in mind that I have considered writing books since I was in, like, second grade. I was already writing poems in the first grade. So this is a feeling that has been on my mind pretty much since forever.)

And lately I have come to notice this: no matter how much I say that I want to create content, all I do is consume it. I haven’t have a single WIP since I gave up on my 2018 NaNoWriMo project because it stopped making sense to me. All I do is consume, and consume, whether it’s books or movies or TV Shows. Whether it’s on Netflix, or on YouTube, or anything really. It’s also fanart on Tumblr and Instagram. Sometimes it’s fanfiction. And sometimes it’s booktube or other blogs? All I ever do is consume content.

My attempts at the whole matching book covers with your outfits trend thing is actually the only creative thing I seem to have done lately. Along with baking cakes which I can’t seem to stop doing as well. But no big project, sadly.

I’ve seen many people talk about all the opportunities they had to develop their crafts and their WIPs during the confinement. To those people, and if you’re one of them, I want to say: congratulations. I really admire you. I on the other hand have been reading and watching Netflix. I watched a bunch of kdrama which happens every once in a while. (Crash Landing on You was really good!) I’ve been listening to musicals which I also like to do from time to time (my new obsession is Hadestown). And yes, I love the fact that I finally have time to catch up with my TBR. I’ve read more than 15 books since the beginning of the confinement, some which had been on my TBR for years, and it is really satisfying. It makes me really happy. But it’s been a month, and we still have one month to go… I also downloaded Animal Crossing on my phone, but that’s a whole other topic…

To put in perspective the whole creating/consuming content dilemma I’ve had, let me also tell you that this article has been waiting in my drafts for almost a month, unfinished. It’s an idea that I had at the very beginning of the confinement, and look at me now: my fifth week without work is starting. And I’m actually beginning to miss it. So I’ve been procrastinating on this blog post while consuming more content. To be fair, I’ve actually been posting quite a few articles, but you see my point. Nothing too complicated, and nothing much compared to the amount of books I’ve read, and in general, the amount of content that I have consumed. And what I’m asking myself is simple: WHY?

I have ideas. Tons of them. They come and they go, some stick around, but none so far have taken the definitive shape of a book. I’ve never managed to write more than 15k on a project. And I have come to terms with it. But the ideas keep coming in. And I know, deep inside, that I still want to write books. I feel like I am not ready yet. Maybe I am not yet in a good mindset when it comes to my mental health. But paradoxically, my depression has in many occasions fed my creativity. And now that I’m feeling better, I’m not so creative anymore. I don’t know what to make of it. What I do know is that having a bad mental health is not the key to creativity and enforcing that it is is just a terrible thing to do to artists. But I don’t know where that leaves me.

There was a time when I wanted to be a young writer. I wanted to write a book at 16 and then at 18. It didn’t happen and now I’m 24. No books written. I have some poetry sitting somewhere. And a book blog that has been running for almost 5 years despite all odds. (Thanks for being 700 of you by the way!) But where is my big break out? Where is the critically acclamed novel I was supposed to write? And why am I not writing it right now? I don’t know. And I don’t have an answer for all my questions. And that’s okay. I guess I will keep consuming media until I feel like I’m ready to write. I will teach myself how to do better, and solve the mystery of how to create a plot that works from beginning to end. I know that I still have a lot to learn, and I’m excited about it.

Until then, happy reading!

Life Update: I’m Selling Books Apparently

Let’s go back in time a little bit to the end of February, when I ended my internship in a publishing house near Strasbourg, and moved back to my parents with one goal in mind: find a job, get money, and become a functional adult. Okay so that’s three goals but I feel like if the first one happens the other two follow.

Wait, we’re going back in time some more actually. Ever since high school I did not really know what to do with my life, except for the fact that I liked books, but that’s not much of a plan. Which is how I ended up studying humanities, and eventually did a Master in Comparative Literature.

At the end of the day, most of my friends from college knew they wanted to become professors, while the only thing I knew was that I DID NOT WANT to become a teacher / professor. Which is how I ended up at my internship: it was pretty much a combination of books + the need to get out of here for a while. And here I am back a little more than 6 months later.

Throughout the first four months, I still didn’t really know what I was doing there. Then came January, and I attended a comic book festival with my coworkers, partly in order to promote our latest releases, and partly because it was a really popular event. Anyway. I am mentioning this because that’s basically when I had a big revelation of what I wanted to do with my life. Suddenly I had a plan!

I figured that I wanted to be a corrector — basically the person who proofreads novels, contracts and such. Which sounded to me like I could get paid to read and point out other people’s mistakes: how great would that be?

And thus I came up with a plan: finish my internship, possibly find a job in a bookshop, and from October to next June, follow the program that would allow me to become a reader / corrector / proofreader.

I quickly realised that I needed to get a job in order to stay busy and earn some money, so I applied to several positions in various publishing houses and bookstores, and eventually got contacted by one of the bookshops which turns out is quite close to where I live, and believe it or not, I got the job!

So I’ve been working there for a little over a week, and my legs are finally getting used to it… But more importantly, I’m happy that I got the job although it get get confusing and frustrating because I need time to adjust, I don’t know where anything is, and I unfortunately haven’t read all the books in the world.

What I hear every time a customer asks me a question that I cannot answer which is all the time.

And I know that I only just started, and that it’s normal that I don’t know where every single book is, and that I’m here to learn, yet it remains SO FRUSTRATING.

Hopefully I will get used to it, and I guess I will see what the future has in store for me!

The Versatile Blogger Award | 2018 Edition!

I was tagged by Bri’s Book Nook to do the Versatile Blogger Award, thank you so much dear! Since the last time I actually did it was in 2016, I decided to do it again, because a lot has changed since then.

It is possible that other people also tagged me for this Award, if so thank you, and I’m sorry I didn’t reply sooner… Here is my answer! I also realised I haven’t done a Blogger Award post in quite some time, so I decided I might as well give it a go this time. And before I really get into it, I also wanted to make a small life update post at some point soon-ish, so this will do the trick!

Here are the rules:

• If you are nominated, you’ve been awarded the Versatile Blogger Award!
• Thank the person who gave you the award.
• Include a link to their blog.
• Select 15 blogs/bloggers that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly.
• Nominate those 15 bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award.
• Finally, tell the person who nominated you 7 things about yourself!

Here are my answers:

#1. If you don’t know that already, I am a French book lover, and I will soon turn 23. I’ve had this blog since 2015, and it was one of the best decisions I have ever made.

#2. I graduated from college in July and I have a Master’s Degree in Comparative Literature. I never thought I would say that, but I actually really miss uni!

#3. I am currently doing an internship in a publishing house, and shipping (sketch)books all around the world

#4. I tried to do NaNoWriMo in 2015 and 2016 and didn’t go through until the end, which is why I didn’t even attempt it last year. However, this time I’m really planning on doing it, and not giving up!

#5. I’m not quite sure what I want to do with my life, and I’m not quite sure where I want to live, but what I know is that it has to be a big city where there are things to see and do. And by that, I mean book events. I just moved to the countryside for my internship, and every time I see a new book event happening in Paris it break my heart, because I wish I could be there. In addition, I weirdly miss public transports and wish I didn’t have to take my car every time I want to do something, including my laundry.

#6. For the past few years, I have been struggling with depression (on top of my anxiety). However, I am feeling better and I have now officially stopped taking my medication. It feels so good to see the end of the tunnel. Honestly when I started taking them, I thought it would be for the rest of my life. And yet here I am!

I have also recently written an article about my mental health on Marie’s blog @ Drizzle & Hurricane Books if you’d like to read more about it!

#7. I love traveling. So far this year I have been to Germany (Berlin and Baden Baden), Belgium (Brussels), Austria (Vienna and Salzburg) as well as Slovakia (Bratislava). It’s something I have always loved doing, and never grow tired of. I also love traveling alone because it makes me feel so free, it’s amazing! I’m not sure what my next destination will be, maybe Heidelberg or Amsterdam, or somewhere else, who knows… I can’t wait!

Enough about me, for the last part of this post I’m tagging some blogs (not 15 because I don’t want to bother that many people) I discovered recently, feel free to do the tag or not, and have a wonderful day!

Clara @ The Bookworm of Notre-Dame

Lily @ Sprinkles of Dreams

Beth @ Reading Every Night

Kat @ Novels and Waffles

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Thanks for reading!

Authors I Would Like To Meet

I was thinking about all the authors I got to meet this year, and how amazing that was, and then it got me thinking of other wonderful authors I wanted to meet. But first of all, I have to admit that I was really blessed this year because I got to meet so many of my favourite authors.

Earlier this year, I attended the Paris Book Fair and met Sarah Dessen, Victoria Schwab, Marissa Meyer and Tatiana de Rosnay who are all among my absolute favourite authors, it was surreal. I also got to meet Diana Gabaldon and that was very impressive. In addition I attended book readings at Shakespeare and Company, and got to meet with both Reni Eddo-Lodge and Olivia Laing.

Last year, I also met with Rainbow Rowell at the book fair, as well as Annie Ernaux who is one of my favourite French authors. In 2016, I saw both James Dashner and Michael Cunningham, again at the Paris book fair. And back in 2015, I got to see John Green in Paris, while he was on his tour to promote the Paper Towns movie. That was also one crazy afternoon, and it was so great. I thought this would never happen, as he was one of my absolute favourite authors, and I am so lucky I got to see him that day. Anyway, back to the topic.

The original list of authors I absolutely wanted to meet would have included John Green, Victoria Schwab, Sarah Dessen and Marissa Meyer, so this year really feels like a huge success in terms of that!

But without further ado, here’s a list of some authors I would love to meet:

1. Becky Albertalli, author of Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda. I just love her books so much, it would be such an honour to meet her. And I probably wouldn’t know what to say but whatever.

2. Sandhya Menon, author of When Dimple Met Rishi. She seems like such a wonderful person, I loved her books, and I also really like following her on twitter, and I think if I met her I would probably cry, but you know, in a good way.

3. Rupi Kaur, author of Milk and Honey. She is such an inspiration to me, both in terms of writing and life in general.

4. Adam Silvera, author of History is all you left me. He is one of my latest author discoveries, and I just fell in love with his books. I also really like following him on twitter, and I would totally love getting to see him in real life!

5. Patrick Ness, author of The Rest of us Just Live Here. I actually read More than this a few years ago and only came back to his work this year, which only just confirmed what an amazing and inspiring author I think he is.

I would also love to meet with some authors I chat with on Instagram, including Freedom Matthews, Claire Marie Lucas and Rachel R. Smith, fingers crossed it will happen one day!

And I’m now waiting for March because that’s when the next Paris book fair will take place 😇 Anyway, that was random, thanks for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day 😘

Why I Read YA

Today I am here with an article maybe a little different from what I usually post, but I thought it might be interesting as well, and I just wanted to share my love for the YA genre in general. I am 22, going 23 and about to start an internship in a publishing house, as I have graduated back in June. And yet I find myself still reading – and loving – YA. And there is nothing wrong with that, obviously. I just found myself wondering why and I wanted to share it on here.

When I was a kid, I used to read a lot. I went to the library every week and borrowed as many books as I could. When I reached high school, I tuned down my love for books as I became completely obsessed with Korean Dramas and spend most of my free time watching them. Around the end of senior year, I got back into reading, but as college started I basically stopped reading for leisure, as all the books I read were for my classes, and recommended by my professors. However, at the turn between Year 2 and Year 3, I got back into reading with books like Let It Snow by John Green, Maureen Johnson, and Lauren Myracle, and The Maze Runner by James Dashner. Around that time, I made my bookstagram account, and a bit later, my blog. The rest is history.

But I guess what I’m trying to say is that when I needed YA the most, I wasn’t an avid reader anymore. So now I’m just, in a way, catching up with lost time. But that’s obviously not the only reason I still read and love YA!

Here are some reasons I enjoy it so much:

  • It’s such a broad genre and is providing readers with more and more diverse books which I live for
  • There is something for every mood from contemporary to high fantasy or sci-fi or really anything
  • They are usually fast paced and quick to read, something I always enjoy
  • I can usually relate to at least a few characters, and I’m not going to lie, I love that feeling

Some of my latest YA reads include Unwind by Neal Shusterman, Tyler Johnson Was Here by Jay Coles (review), New World Inferno by Jennifer Wilson, Love, Hate and Other Filters by Samira Ahmed (review), and To all the boys I’ve loved before by Jenny Han, which I all really recommend.

I also wanted to mention some YA books that I consider important, such as Noughts and Crosses by Malorie Blackman, The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas, A Quiet Kind of Thunder by Sara Barnard and Turtles all the way down by John Green, among others obviously. And I couldn’t write this blog post without mentioning how relatable Rainbow Rowell’s book Fangirl was. It was honestly one of my favourite reading experiences ever.

I love how the YA genre keeps renewing itself, and getting more and more diverse, including wonderful LGBTQIAP+ books (by Becky Albertalli, Patrick Ness, Adam Silvera and many others, I just realised I haven’t mentioned them yet in this post so, you know, I had to), including diversity of origins and skin colour, mental illness (something that really matters to me in case you didn’t know) and so much more. So I guess my point is, I will never grow too old to read YA, as long as it keeps being that satisfying.

Thanks for reading, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

Life Update: Some Videos!

Hi bookworms! I realised I haven’t posted in quite some time however I did manage to post two videos on my Booktube channel, so if you’d like, here they are!

I have a Nerdy Post Box unboxing, featuring the Fantasy theme:

And a rant about the new premiere of The 100! Season 5 is finally here, after all this time, and I have some thoughts:

A Little Life Update

I’m writing this article as an explanation on why I’m so inactive this month, and why there is so little bookish content on my blog recently (although my last article is a book review). The main reason is, I’ve been super busy, obviously. And since I haven’t done a proper life update post in a while, I decided I might as well do one now, since lots of things have been happening!

As some of you may know, I have been living in Berlin since the end of September. Moving here was a crazy adventure, I had to move dorms in the middle of the year, I had to struggle with German, I met so many amazing people, I got to travel… But more importantly, and something I absolutely did not expect, I found a place where I belong. Sadly, this amazing year is coming to an end, and I am going back to France of Tuesday. I still cannot believe it.

I have been super busy since the beginning of July, because first, two of my friends visited me, and it was amazing.

Then, I had to move out of my dorm in the middle of exams. I am now staying in a friend’s room in my previous dorm, because my contract ended one week before the end of the exams. I am not going to discuss this matter further, but if you want to read my live-tweet of this adventure (yes I do that) you can read it here. I can’t believe it’s been a week already. On top of that, I had exams, so not much time to read or blog.

Another reason why there is less bookish content on here sometimes is that I want to speak up more about things that matter to me, like feminism and mental illness, and this is something that is reflecting on my blog as well as my twitter account (which was always a mess of things anyway). I am also trying to inform myself as much as I can on all sorts of issues, both on the internet and by reading diverse reads. (And I’m loving it.)

I have also been struggling a lot with mental illness recently. There are ups and downs, obviously. But I have been feeling better this past few weeks. I have met some amazing people throughout this year. I am finally making projects for the future, and by that I mean projects that are getting me super excited, projects where I can actually see myself. Things are starting to make sense. And it’s getting me super excited. Of course, there are still tons of things unanswered. But I have things to look forward too.

And after wondering about it forever, I decided to get a tattoo, which is also something that I am super excited about. I’ve had it for about a month now, but I don’t think I have mentioned it here, so here we go!

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And one more thing I wanted to mention because it also got me really excited. On Saturday I attended Christopher Street Day, also known as the Berlin Pride Parade. It was my first time attending Pride, and it was an amazing experience. Unfortunately we got caught in a massive storm – I honestly have never been so soaked in my entire life – but it didn’t matter. It was so heartwarming. A beautiful, amazing experience.

Bonus: my friend nudging me and telling me “that’s your people!!” when a group of people walked by with a bisexual pride flag. And I have to admit, it was so comforting and beautiful and welcoming. Hard to describe. But it felt good and I’m so glad I went. It didn’t even matter that there was a huge crowd, and I will definitely do it again.

I guess that’s it for today. Bits and pieces of what has been up with me recently. I hope you are all having a fantastic day. And thank you so much for still being there! I recently reached 400 followers, and it is so unbelievable! Stay awesome!

Life Update: Why I Haven’t Been So Active

First of all, what even happened to WordPress? I barely recognize the site… How do I edit my articles now? I’m confused!!

I know I haven’t been really active lately, and I wanted to apologize. I was very busy, and I decided that blogging should remain a leisure, something I enjoy, and something that does not stress me out. One of the reasons for my inactivity was the fact that I didn’t have wifi for a while, which made it harder to blog.

The other reason is, and I don’t know if I have already mentioned it on here or not, that I had to move dorms at the beginning of March (I know, that was almost two weeks ago, times flies). So first, I was busy with packing, and saying goodbye to my friends. Then, I had one of the most stressful days of my life, driving back and forth from one dorm to another with two of my friends, to move all of our – numerous – possessions. And then, of course, I had to settle in here, in my new dorm, with my new flatmates (who seem very nice, but also loud and not so clean… But we will see how this new living arrangement turns out in the end).

Once I was finally settled, I had to say goodbye to more people.

Fastforward last Sunday, when one of my friends arrived from Paris to visit me. So again, I was too busy to spend time on my blog. I still managed to read, and post one more book review (check out my previous post if you are curious). We did a lot of sightseeing together, as well as a lot of tea drinking, and a lot of shopping. I have bought way too many books again, and will film and post a new book haul very soon!

I also received some good news in the meantime: I finally got my Erasmus money! Which means, goodbye stress. Well, the stress related to this at least. I will never stop stressing out about every single thing that happens to me.

Anyway. The reason why I am not so active is not over. Me and my friend were supposed to fly back together together on Friday, but on Thursday, we received a notification that our flight was cancelled, because of an airport strike (since when do German people go on strikes?? I thought it was a French thing, duh). My friend managed to get a ticket for Sunday afternoon (today). I did not. I did, however, get a plane ticket for Monday night (tomorrow).

All was well until this morning, when I woke up to a panicked message from another one of my friends, telling me the airport was striking again on Monday. Just my luck. We went to the airport together, and the company I was flying with finally announced that my flight was cancelled, and suggested I take another flight on Thursday. Needless to say I was furious, so I waited (angrily) in line to talk with a fight attendant, and she managed to get me a seat on a flight Tuesday evening. After letting me know that if I had my luggage with me, I could have gone home today. Thank you very much lady, but how was I supposed to know that?

Anyway. I’ve been busy. And I’m flying back to Paris on Tuesday for a few weeks. I still have a lot of studying to do, and some of my Erasmus friends are going to visit, which I am very excited about. In the meantime I will still be busy, but I wanted to keep you updated on my incredible life. And of course, I will try to write and post some book reviews.

My friend and I attempted to make a Berlin vlog which you can watch if you want: